“Chip, You’re Positively Glowing!”
Yesterday, when I saw a friend, she greeted me with the title of today’s blog post. I wonder what she’ll say today after I start my seven and a half weeks of daily targeted radiation to my pelvis, where my prostate cancer has spread. I’m not sure radiation will “glow me” or “dim me,” but I know the day after I finish this regimen (and continue my hormone depletion therapy), I fly to NYC to launch my book on “Good Morning, America,” “The Today Show,” and a variety of other book signings, media interviews, and parties.
It’s a lot to digest. Normally, at times like these in the past, I might “show off,” but with the launch week less than two months from now, I will take pride in just “showing up.” We don’t know how long we’ll live, do we? For that matter, I could get hit by a taxi crossing the street in Manhattan that week. So, we seize the day and savor the moment. That will be my balancing act the next few months: how do I feel even more inspired to spread my “pro-aging” message while also feeling deep gratitude for waking up each day and enjoying both solitude and connection with friends and family during this radiation regimen period?
Yes, I have stage three cancer that seems more aggressive than typical prostate cancer, but I won’t let it define me. As I’ve said before, I’ll let Cancer be my exacting teacher. I’ve learned so much these past five and a half years since we first detected that Cancer was calling me to the classroom. I’ve learned that my body isn’t failing me and I don’t have to fail my body. If I treat my body like my best friend, we’ll be okay. I’ve learned that I’m as sick as my secrets so sharing my emotional journey is healing. I’ve learned that it’s time for me to dose-down my hero archetype and rely upon the strength and support of others. And, I’ve learned that, even amidst painful physical and life lessons, the ultimate form of awe is to witness and embody moral beauty, the expression of courage, kindness, and equanimity.
Cancer has made me a better human. And, now it’s time for me to graduate from this Cancer school. Wish me luck on my radiation journey.